Carrying my camera at all times is starting to become a habit. That means that I should always be prepared to capture that wonderfully inspiring item at a moment’s notice.
Not so much…I’m still not any more AWARE of things around me. You have to NOTICE the things that are unique and beautiful. I’m better than I used to be…better than some of the people I hang around with…but still woefully lacking in the ability to use my everyday surroundings as photo inspiration.
I WANT to use my camera more. I WANT to be a better photographer. I WANT to be aware and noticing and never miss an opportunity to record beauty. I guess I’m just not there yet, but I’m going to keep trying. That’s the only way I’m going to improve.
Using a sketchbook is supposed to work the same way. But that means you have to carry your sketchbook around with you, and a writing implement, too. More ‘stuff’ to keep track of and I’m not very good at drawing or even taking notes about things I see.
Does this mean that I’m not a true artist? Or just that I only want to carry a wallet and car keys, not a satchel of equipment and feel like a pack mule when I walk out my door?
My memory still works pretty well, despite my constant fear of Alzheimer’s, so I guess I’ll continue to rely on that as my primary inspiration source. Since I don’t do realism, the things I have in my memory banks don’t have to be true or real or even possible in actual fact.
I guess I can continue to work that way until I become a better photographer or a better sketcher. Those are just areas that I’m aware of lacking skills and will strive to improve, but I guess that lack will never stop me from continuing to produce what I love.